With all its beauty life brings us down at times. they say life is short so we have to enjoy it but is it really enjoyable all the time? .. this is where the question mark puts it self!
Recently I've lost control on all life's paths the straight ones and those with bumps.. I've been thinking of blogging since forever and been addicted to reading other bloggers pages, but the thing is haven't really had the guts to start one of my own; maybe it was just about not having the courage to do it or maybe just didn't know where to start from or how to, But now i found the perfect time and the perfect reason.
You may think mysterious.. but no i am not its just the experience in life (learnt it the hard way).. Well people say teens are still young not mature enough or whatever but we still do live our everyday life and gain experience which counts later on in life we may not appreciate it now but am sure we will all do so later.
2013 for me didn't start well its only 4 months though the year but a lot happened in those 99 days. Lost many friends learnt the different faces people wear knew that not every person with a smile is happy some just put it on to move on with life some people count every step they make and other live spontaneously but at the end of the road as Stephen Chbosky says “Things change. And friends leave. Life doesn't stop for anybody.”
Okay i will now tell you what this is for i just came back from Umrah and been thinking the way i am living my life and the people i spend my time with and whether they are all worth it i came with many answers and i wouldn't stop thinking ... they say people come and go but best friends are forever but what if the so called best friends of yours by time drift away,, were you really meant to be or is it just another group of friends that fade away with time i am just wondering. With all the different people coming from all around the world for one reason no one feeling superior to the other coming for the one and only god the creator of heaven and earth ALLAH subhanahu wo taala that i met and the incidents that i encountered i figured that the all my life is wrong on wrong and my routine and my daily life and the people around me its time for a new life a whole new me its a matter of time but its now or never.
well i don't know if all what i wrote up there made sense but one thing i know its words coming out from my heart. i am ready now, don't know if i would be accepted as the new me or not but i don't care as long as i know i am doing the right thing and i hope i don't regret this later in life and may Allah be with me ya rab.
well all this happened in the spring break and i went to saudi arabia for 8 days in which i learnt many new things school started on this past Sunday but since i was away i wasn't able to attend i still didn't go back to school and am not sure about what am going to do but i am sure i will be back here again to tell out my back to school experience and i hope i am strong enough to handle this a life changing decision is never easy you know ...
PS. i apologise for such a long post but its the only way i could free my heart :)
--Minni<3--
